america is a monster. but we are the ones awaiting a new dawn. or; how i stopped worrying about apocalypse or; victory not vengeance

Have I no control, is my soul not mine?
Am I not just man, destiny defined?
Never to be ruled but held to heel
Am I not man, does my heart not bleed?
No lord, no God, no hate, no pity, no pain, just me
Synchronous guidance. Do I just choose my way?
Never to be ruled nor held to heel.
No heaven or hell, just the land between.

And am I not man?

So why do I love when I still feel pain?
Does it end, when my is work done?
Why am I lone and why do I feel that I carry a sword through a battlefield?

Like the path to heaven or the road to hell
Choice is our own consequences bind
We are the kings of wisdom, the fools as well
We are the gods to many, we are humble men
We who build great works just to break them down
Do we just make rules so we never fail

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These thoughts I try to hide
I have faith in me hope it will survive
I can’t hear the words I guide
I muse and ask who will carry me
I can’t deny I can’t defend the hopelessness
And the thought that nothings real
The strength I need to feel
Fell behind the veil of a face staring back at me
Nothing I can do that I have not done
No more truth I can see
Tell me what to do
So I do nothing wrong
Something I can hope for
Something real they can see
So nothing falls apart
Because I can’t start over again
Seems I’ve waited years for this day to end
Praying for my self but it’s tearing me apart
I must ask again who will carry me
So this does not end

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Circumstances afford me no second chance to tell you how much I've missed you. I no longer ask why I’m here. Something deeper brought me than a need to remember. 

We were all once young and blessed with wings. No heights could keep us from their reach. No sacred place we did not soar. Greater things burned within us. I don't regret the choices that I made. I know you feel the same. 

My beloved do you know how many times I stared at clouds thinking that I saw you there? These are feelings that do not pass so easily. I can't forget what we claimed as ours. 

Moments lost though time remains. I am still proud of what we were. No pain remains, no feeling. Eternity awaits. Grant me wings that I might fly. My restless soul is longing. No pain remains, no feeling. 
Eternity awaits.

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I pressed my face against the glass, smiled as my breath made some pattern or another world unfurled before me like a sail, glinted in gold from this rich dawn sky awaiting the ship they had told me would come, quietly anticipating that was to come

I laughed as I waved and imagined you saw me. In the streets of the city, the windows of buildings, a million faces gazing upwards in wonder. A million faces together and cheering and smiling. You were the warmth of their hearts, you were the sum of their dreams. In the coldness of morning you brought warmth to their heart. The feeling that gives this feeling of wonder

I see you as a friend. the savior of our dreams. I imagined a new world, lands far away, imagined those faces as you hung in their sky

I’m leaving ground stepping into a new world. I’m leaving ground into a new world I’m not alone, I think it’s the first time

I step into this world leaving everything I’m leaving ground, stepping into a new world Leaving everything, leaving everything.